Be the change....

Gandhi said, "Be the change you wish to see in the world".  Pretty profound shit.  What he didn't say was to change or become anything other than who you are, regardless of who's asking.  Instead, constantly work on becoming the best version of yourself.   I think we all struggle with self acceptance.  Some probably more (hand raise) than others. A few nights ago, my oldest was playing on the xbox with one of his friends. Technology, while I feel I'm pretty hip, still amazes me.  His friend was at his house and O was at ours.  I could hear the conversation that O was having with him and it was obvious O was getting upset.  After a few minutes, he came upstairs crying.  Now here's the deal, I will let my kids handle shit on their own, I really try not to get involved, BUT when you make my kid cry, ALL bets are off. This kid, who O claims is a "really great" friend, kept making the same stupid comment to him, even though O asked him repeatedly to stop.  O is a lot like his mama, he can and will hold a lot in, but once it reaches that limit, that point where your fucking head is going to explode, look out.  I sat down with him that night and we talked about friendship and kindness and no matter who you are, or what you do, your real friends will ALWAYS have your back and never expect you to be anything more or anyone different than who you are.   With friendship comes honesty, trust and a true understanding that we are who we are, and even on our best days and our worst days, our friends accept us, regardless.  They don't try to change us. The people I want to be around accept me, for me.  They don't ask me to be anyone different, ever.  I hope as O, and the rest of the crew get older, they will hold onto the dear friendships that they have made along the way, toss to the curb that assholes that make me want to put my kids in a bubble, and just be kind fucking human beings, and know that there are good people in this world...hold onto these people, they will be your lifeline, forever.  Life is not always easy, it's not always fun, but at the end of the day, it's what you make of it, everyday.  It's who you choose to surround yourself with and who you chose to break free from when when you know the fight is no longer worth fighting for.

Girls just wanna have fun

As I slowly, ever so slowly, creep upon my 40th birthday, a few things have become crystal clear.  I am in such a great place right now...physically, emotionally, mentally.  I am having the time of my life.  I am surrounded by people who love me, for me.  I want to laugh, I want to dance, I want to smile....a smile goes such a long way.  I want to meet people, catch up with long lost friends and laugh, fucking laugh until my face hurts.  I want to share stories, talk about my kids, learn about your life. Life is short, really fucking short. You never know. You've got to enjoy every.single.day, no regrets. I want to keep it real and honest. I don't want it to be serious. Serious is boring.  I want to see my friends at brunch, which carries over to happy hour, which turns into midnight.  I want to watch my husband skip around the place like he owns it, with that goofy fucking smile on his face.  I want to talk to my sister, on the other side of the world and scream, "YOU made it, YOU are almost home." I want to hug my kids and let them know that no matter what they do in life, good, bad, ugly, I will be there for them and I will always remind them what remarkable, amazing human beings they are.   I want to meet new people and carry on conversations like I've known them for years.  I want to bump into old acquaintances and catch up as if not a minute went by.  I want you to smile, always, because I am always smiling back at you, wherever we are. Let's fly.

#truth #noregrets